jeflove

This term's been pretty crazy. Had a lot of personal things that I don't really feel like sharing with strangers over the internet, but let's just say it's been rough. :<

Got my first C at MIT =( Not actually my first-ever report card C (curse you, middle school PE). When I try to explain it, I say that it's because I had 4 presentations and 3 papers due the week and a half before exams, but I think it was just as much me not being motivated and throwing myself into club stuff to escape.

Speaking of club stuff, we did a survey recently of people on the anime club mailing list to try to figure out why no one comes to our showings and events and the result was kind of funny but to be expected:



Sigh. In my next life, I'm going to apply to RIT or Wellesley or something; I doubt their club people are quite as cool as ours, but at least their student bodies aren't as depressingly hosed.

In other news, I'm thinking about getting a Twitter again. "jennifu" is taken though. Maybe "jennifuu"?

I've never purged before and did today for the first time.. Its late at night and my throat is so sore and my eyes kill.. So awful.

today was a fail and i have no words to talk about it.
the end

Sleeping with ur pictuure close to my heart feel like i'm holding a teddy bear....i feel like a little kid in love ;)

This one is going to be short and quick because it is currently 11:03 and I am studying for my last final that I have tomorrow at 10:30am. Today was.... alright. I had some coffee with soy again and a banana this morning and then for lunch I had a grapefruit around 12. Around 2 I had like a cup of tomato vegetable soup at my school. I took my final and then came home and had some popcorn, spinach, apple, and carrots. I don't know what my deal is tonight, but I have been studying since 7 and i keep chewing gum and once the flavor is gone I put another piece in.. I have had like 7 pieces. I need to stop, that must not be that good for you! Well off to more studying FML.
<3

So today kinda sucked... I woke up late and ate a banana with some organic coffee and organic soymilk. I had some chips last night at my moms house and they really made me feel sick this morning. They always freakin make me feel sick. Last night my mom picked me up so I could go try on these running shoes at a store because I ordered them online and they were to big. (that is what I thought!) Well turns out that they were to small! I have been wearing to small of running shoes this whole time! You are actually supposed to have like a thumb (around an inch) of room from your toe and the end of the shoe. I am usually an 8-81/2 in normal everyday shoes BUT he told me that a freak 10 fits my foot perfect! Uhhh hello clown shoes. I tried on so many different shoes and I talked to him about the triathlon class that I am taking next semester and he told me that he actually took that same class. I can hardly wait! If I wasn't taking it, I would be dreading next semester. Uh so over school. So anyway he told me that I could just bring in the shoes that I ordered online and he would just take them as if I bought them there. How nice was that?? So tonight, I went and switched them and got these way nice ones! OHHH I am so stoked. But other than that news, I went christmas shopping with my friend and we spent so much time at the mall. I should of studied for my biology final that I have tomorrow and I am not prepared for it! FML! Oh and pretty sure I didn't study when I got home from the running shoe store. EF! But yeah i had another banana after my coffee today and then a apple. When we were shopping my friend was hungry and so we got lunch and I had a vegan spinach wrap with fruit and I didn't finish it all. She had a potato and chili and had like 8 bites. I think she has a ED but she wont admit it. When I got home from the running store I made some popcorn and had a Kombucha drink. They make me so warm and i always feel like I am floating. I wish I didn't eat so much today, I didn't even get to work out either. I am a major failure! Oh and not to mention how I am going to fail my test tomorrowwwwww bahhhh! i hope I can be stronger tomorrow..
Night

Sooo today is going good and it better stay that way! I am super busy studying with finals and that usually fucks everything up because all I want to do is binge to get my mind off of studying. I had a study group this morning at 8:30 and then I went to the gym right after. I jogged more a mile and burned 100 calories and then went and did the elliptical and burned 400 calories. I really wanted to stop, but I pushed myself and went to the bike and burned another 500 calories. I had a bad pain in my throat though, but I feel better now. Then I went home and showered and had a banana with some cinnamon on top. ( I heard that cinnamon burns fat..) now I am having a carrot and I need to finish getting dressed because I had a study group at 2 and its 2:10 oops haha.

write back later tonight hopefully..
Muah
xo

I found my faith again, you make everything okay again. please please don't let go
I'm so lost without you. I've been told so many times that you're not good for me. but my friends don't see it, how happy you make me.

even tho your far away from where i am
if i had one wish it would be to be back in your arms
everything felt so right
i want to go back to that night

I can't let go of those memories, i'm just not ready
i hope i get to see you very soon. i'm missing you too much <333

i'm gonna posting a before and after picture for example...